I've had mixed thoughts.... on working in the Fall. Our little neighborhood school closed its doors to never re-open again. My regular work consists of me working with children from kindergarten, through 5th grade. I help motivate children in math, science, and creativity in art. I have helped children with reading, by creating games. The more I worked with the children the more it fed my imagination to create more games to help them learn basic skills. When I first got into this job, it was more to me than just a paycheck. I had lots of joy. As the years progressed, the joy became more of a burden... a burden to make sure I kept earning enough money to pay on my vehicle every month, of course, I didn't just spend it on this...but I bought groceries or got something I wanted or needed. But, with the closing of some schools, meant also the loss of many teaching positions. Out of 12, 9 were let go. I wasn't one. My job isn't funded through the schools. Because of this, and with all the budget cuts (throughout the land), I may have to consider either taking on a substitute position...or withdraw completely. Which I have considered. To take on a position to sub would mean fewer days. With all this on my mind, it doesn't make it any easier to say good-bye to all the parents and children I have known these past years. I do also have to consider my health issues. I've had many doctors tell me to stay away from STRESS. There are different forms of stress, there's a good kind of stress that motivates a person to get out of bed in the mornings, then there is a bad form of stress that can cause all kinds of problems...one being ulcers. I have an ulcer. I have cut-down on eating tomatoes and pizza (which I crave at times). Any job can be stressful that's for sure. And just because I want or should I say, NEED to take time off...don't worry I won't become a recluse. I will still create and be creative through my candle business. I have also thought about teaching myself how to paint with water colors. So, I do have some things to keep myself busy. I've been wanting to get back into drawing too. I think I rely too much on the use of my camera. But, that can be good-- as it helps me to think about creating cards & notes.
I might even do a GIVE-AWAY sometime in the future. I've been thinking about this for a long while. I've just got to decide what to give away!! Unfortunately, time is running out...and I must get my buns to bed....church is in the morning. Okay dear folks, I will see you another time!
Psalm 37:4
